tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56832024995074709712024-03-14T04:55:19.582+00:00Deni - Journey of a submissiveThe experiences of a couple who have decided to explore the world of a Wife Led Marriage and our journey along the road to what we hope will be a more satisfying lifestyle for us both.Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-27038585748169318442011-02-11T20:13:00.001+00:002011-02-11T20:13:58.203+00:00Long time<div><p>Its been such a long time since I last updated this blog and I'm not sure why. </p>
<p>Mistress and I have continued to develop our Femdom relationship. Since November I have been kept totally enfemme whenever I'm not at work, and even there now I wear more 'feminine' clothes. <br><br></p>
<p>Apart from being removed for cleaning I have been caged in my CB6000 since November, and whenever its removed I'm cuffed and blindfolded. Mistress says she doesn't ever want me to see our touch my clit again - whether thats true or not it surely makes us both very hot!</p>
<p>Mistress has started her search for a stud in earnest, and I'm sorry to say that makes me jealous even though I understand her need and the fact I shan't ever again fuck her in that way. More pleasingly Mistress continues to enjoy my tongue,fingers and strapon so I'm not totally redundant. </p>
<p>I'm also becoming quite an adept cock sucker as I'm frequently lent to Terri now.</p>
<p>Oh yes, nearly forgot to mention but I now have no problem orgasming from being fucked in my sissy-pussy :-)</p>
<p>Will try to update soon. </p>
<p>Deni xxx<br>
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<br/><img src='http://lh6.ggpht.com/_my_9BizPETU/TVWYfxNtdZI/AAAAAAAAACI/SD7M-tYeaOM/119328_600.png' /></div>Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-55010638827966867582010-11-24T09:15:00.001+00:002010-11-24T09:15:37.869+00:00UsedLast night was a new experience. <br /><br />I received text from Mistress telling me to be home early from work and to prepare myself for a play evening. Obviously I was thrilled at this and rushed home to bathe, do my makeup and put on my prettiest lingerie with a lovely dress. <br /><br />I had just finished when I got a very short call from Mistress telling me to expect a call from Mistress S and to obey her without hesitation.<br /><br />Mistress S called a few minutes later to tell me to drive to their house. I was very nervous leaving the house dressed enfemme but it was dark and I have a long coat, though it doesnt hide my legs or heels!<br /><br />When I got to Mistress S, I was ushered up to the play room where I was given to Terri for him to use as he wished whilst Mistress S watched without once touching either of us. I lost track of how many times I was whipped, gave head or was fucked. It was all a blur and I seemed to cry all through it. <br /><br />Afterwards I was tied to the bed and eventually fell asleep. This morning Terri woke me and helped me wash before handing me some boy clothes that had obviously been sent over previously. <br /><br />It wasnt until 0900 that Mistress texted me to say she was proud of me and pleased that I had been so obedient. <br /><br />I have no idea what Mistress did whilst I was with Terri and that both excites and scares me.<br /><br />I wonder what tonight will bring?<br /><br />Deni xxx<br /><br /><br />- Posted using BlogPress<br />Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-81174029984901349182010-10-01T22:17:00.001+01:002010-10-01T22:17:48.506+01:00A difficult time but new horizonsIt has not been the greatest couple of months for either Mistress or myself. <br /><br />Following our wonderful holiday my mother was taken ill and, after two horrible months, was granted release last week. <br /><br />Throughout it all Mistress and I became closer than ever as we provided the support each other needed. <br /><br />Mistress knew exactly what I needed and kept me firmly under comtrol and enfemme whenever appropriate. <br /><br />It was during this time we met a lovely femdom couple. Mistress and Mistress S arranged the whole thing without either myself or terri, her husband, knowing a thing. It was a total shock when they came to our house on a Saturday afternoon - with me in my pretty wool dress. I stayed in the lounge as I usually do when someone callls but was mortified when Mistress invited someone in and brought them into the lounge!<br /><br />I was even more shocked to see Mistress S, as I know her in vanilla life but only to say 'hi' to and her husband terry/terri in a pretty skirt and blouse. When the emotions calmed Mistress explained she found Mistress S through an online site then, when they chatted they realised they knew each other - a shock for them both to be sure. It was even more fortuitous as Mistress was, in fact, starting her search for a male fuck-buddy. <br /><br />It was an unforgettable afternoon, culminating in Terri and I kissing and cuddling whilst our Mistress's watched. My emotions were in turmoil as this was my first tv/tv encounter and I truly loved it - it felt so right. <br /><br />Afterwards we knelt as both Mistresses told us what good girls we were and made it clear next time we will go all the way to entertain them. Terri isnt kept locked up so I will be expected to offer him my mouth and my boy-pussy. <br /><br />As they left Mistress sent me upstairs then joined me in the bedroom. I was honoured to service her orally then accept her strap-on which made me squirt in my cage - it was wonderful. <br /><br />Sadly, any further play has been delayed by our bereavement but both Terri amd Mistress S have visited to offer support, kisses and a hand to hold. <br /><br />I can see a new chapter opening for us. <br /><br />Deni xxx<br /><br /><br />- Posted using BlogPress<br />Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-928357838467456402010-08-07T20:27:00.001+01:002010-08-07T20:27:09.888+01:00VacationWe have just returned from a fantastic break as we managed to get a week alone in a beautiful cottage in the West Country. <br /><br />Even better, Mistress insisted I was enfemme for nearly the whole time - including the drive there and back. Initially I was terrified of being spotted but by the end of the week I felt so comfortable I really enjoyed the drive home in my new skirt and blouse. I truly hate the idea of boy clothes again. <br /><br />The sex was great, and all girl-sissy sex. Lots of oral and strap-on action and clitty stayed on the bench or more accurately in the cage. My piercing is healing well, so I'm back in the CB6000 except when sleeping.<br /><br />Now we are home the search for another cock for Mistress will start in earnest. I'm nervous where this will take us but its the path we have chosen. <br /><br />Love, Deni<br /><br /><br />- Posted using BlogPress<br />Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-2892545330820068942010-07-19T14:56:00.000+01:002010-07-19T14:56:00.955+01:00Another stepI had a long telephone conversation with Mistress today. <br /><br />As I've previously blogged, after my rebellion I have realised that I really do want to be a cissy to Mistress. She also has realised that she prefers me as a cissy. <br /><br />However, and is a big however, whilst she wants me as a cissy and isnt sure she wants me to fuck her she has decided that she wants someone - very male - to fuck her occassionally. <br /><br />I'm glad this is finally being discussed as it gave me the opportunity to make it clear that I dont want to fuck her or anyone else with anything other than my tongue, fingers or strapon - my clit is just that and I want it to stay locked away whilst I am fucked. <br /><br />Mistress was so sweet, she completely agrees and really shocked me when she told me to search online for another Femdom couple where the male is still 'functional'. She wants me to show her a shortlist for her to contact. She made it clear she doesnt want a single or dominant male, in her words, not yet anway. <br /><br />I'm really not sure where to start looking so if anyone out there can make a suggestion please do. <br /><br />I really am so confused. Shouldnt I feel jealous? I dont, in fact it seems both erotic and a natural progression of my journey. Its just that the thought of losing Mistress to someone else terrifies me. <br /><br />It would have been so much easier to be born a girl. <br /><br /><br /><br />- Posted using BlogPress<br />Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-75574118929980466962010-07-18T21:28:00.000+01:002010-07-18T21:28:00.317+01:00New clothesSadly we couldn't make it to London this weekend, so our visit to Transformation has had to be postponed. <br /><br />As a consolation Mistress took me to Bluewater where we spent a divine afternoon choosing girly clothes for us both. I've now got enough to let me dress enfemme whenever I'm not at work - and as a special treat Mistress bought me a truly gorgeous long white evening dress. <br /><br />Given the differences in our sizes, and the way we were discussing our purchases it was obvious to the shop assistants that the items were for me but, apart from one uptight bitch, they were all very accepting and even offered advice. <br /><br />A lovely day, thankyou Mistress<br /><br />Deni xxx<br /><br /><br />- Posted using BlogPress<br />Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-86381510443295513262010-07-12T07:46:00.000+01:002010-07-12T07:46:00.006+01:00Sore and happyMistress took me for my piercing yesterday, a day later than planned but unfortunately vanilla life intervened. <br /><br />She decided to take me to the place she has used before, so we had a long trip across London on a hot Sunday. <br /><br />Initially I was delighted when Mistress told me to wear some light sloggie panties under my jeans rather than my usual pantygirdle and stockings but when we got into the piercing studio I was mortified when I was told to hop on the couch and drop my trousers! As I hesitated Mistress told me to stop hesitating, be a good GIRL and do as I was told. The piercer picked up on this straightaway and as I obeyed he turned to Mistress and remarked on my pretty knickers. <br /><br />I was so embarrassed I almost started blubbing. Once I was flat on the bed he asked me what I wanted done, my response of course was to tell him my wife should choose. He was very professional, and though he discussed everything with Mistress he kept asking me if that was what I wanted - to which I dutifully replied "yes". <br /><br />Finally, Mistress decided on a "lorum" piercing at the base of my clitty. Apparently the nipple piercings are on hold at the moment. <br /><br />The piercing itself was a bit of an anticlimax - some discomfort but not too bad. When I got off the couch Mistress passed me a heavy flow panty liner and told me to put it under my piercing. The piercer grinned at this and remarked it was a good idea, but not for men - the inference was obvious. In truth though, he was a nice, professional piercer caught up in our lifestyle. <br /><br />He told Mistress it will need around three months to heal and that I shouldnt have sex or masturbate for at least six weeks and if we want to be ultra safe to abstain for the full twelve weeks. Mistress looked at me, grinned, and said " twelve weeks it is then". <br /><br />So here I am, free of my CB6000 for twelve weeks and totally banned from orgasms. Mistress has said she still intends to use my pussy but I am not to come. <br /><br />More worryingly, she remarked that she may need to find another cock as she doesnt want to deprive herself for three months. It is something we have talked about but never in the way she mentioned it last night. When I tried to raise it this morning she shushed me and told me not to worry my pretty head then made me eat her. <br /><br />How far is my feminization gping to go?<br /><br />Deni xxx<br /><br /><br />- Posted using BlogPress<br />Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-60145050517223184362010-07-07T10:48:00.000+01:002010-07-07T10:50:45.259+01:00A new threshold crossedMistress used me with her strap-on last night. I was still fretting over my impending piercings and so didn't do my usual thing of worrying about trying to come. <br /><br />And guess what? I came!<br />For the first time ever I came whilst Mistress was using my pussy. <br /><br />Mistress was so pleased she didn't punish me for coming without permission - though she made it clear that was a one-time only exception.<br /><br />Afterwards i had to clean up then was cuffed and blindfolded whilst she removed my CB6000 and washed my clitty.<br /><br />I'm still worried about my piercings so maybe I'll get lucky tonight too!<br /><br />Deni<br /><br />- Posted using BlogPress<br />Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-7795100303852408872010-07-06T14:31:00.000+01:002010-07-06T14:38:19.669+01:00Be careful what you wish forMistress told me this morning that I will be let out of my CB6000 this Saturday morning. She waited until after I had thanked her before telling me that it isn't for any sexual relief - she has decided to have my nipples and clitty pierced.<br /><br />I am terrified. <br /><br /><br /><br />- Posted using BlogPress<br />Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-23654653991545685992010-07-05T10:17:00.000+01:002010-07-05T14:52:40.536+01:00A rebellious phaseWell, where do I start?<br /><br /><br />It’s been such a long while since I made an entry here and so much has happened.<br /><br />Shortly after my last blog I rebelled against my new way of life. <br /><br />It was triggered one Sunday morning when we were alone. I had got up, had my bath, shaved all over and was putting on my lingerie whilst considering what dress to wear to make myself attractive to Mistress. We hadn’t had much opportunity to make love and I so wanted Mistress to fuck me. Just then Mistress came into the room and made some comment about seeing Brad Pitt on the news and how hot she finds him. Like a thunderclap, it suddenly dawned on me that there was I, shaved, with painted nails, wearing a chastity belt and about to dress as a girl – that I was rapidly turning me into a girl, with all the desires that go with that – whilst the love of my life was yearning for this epitome of maleness. <br /><br />All my conditioning as a male told me that was wrong, that I was somehow perverse. This was made so much worse by the fact that I love being Deni and belonging to Mistress. Alongside this however, the thought that Mistress wouldn’t be satisfied with that and would turn away from me was terrifying.<br /><br />As this was exploding in my mind, Mistress told me to finish dressing and prepare breakfast as that she wanted to go down the gym. Given my attire it was obvious she wasn’t going to take me with her.<br /><br />Mistress went out straight after breakfast telling me to clear up. As I cleaned up I suddenly decided that I didn’t want to be Deni if it meant losing her. With that thought in my head, I removed my clothes and makeup and dressed in my male outerwear – as I have nothing other than feminine lingerie I had to do without. My ultimate rebellion was to remove my CB6000.<br /><br />Bundling all my feminine clothes, shoes and makeup into rubbish sacks I drove to the local recycling centre and trashed them all.<br /><br />When Mistress came home she was stunned then worried at my state of mind. That was nearly six months ago and it has taken a long while to resolve the issues in our life.<br /><br />I now clearly understand that Mistress really does love me as Deni, that she doesn’t want me any other way and that she doesn’t want anyone else. Mistress has even confided that she is essentially bisexual and actually prefers sex with me as Deni, she just likes men as decoration.<br /><br />About four months ago we resolved to restart our lives as Mistress and Deni. Mistress had bought me an entire new wardrobe and I was very tenderly shaved, made up then dressed. Then she tied me to the bed and I was very soundly whipped as penance for my rebellion, I have never cried so much in my life. As soon as she finished she used my with her strap-on – and it hurt. When I calmed down she put my chastity belt on – and there it has stayed for sixteen long weeks. I don’t know when it will come off, probably soon for cleaning, she has been removing it weekly for that, but she has ensured that each time I am bound and blinfolded and unable to touch it or see it. She has said that as a good girl I shouldn't be seeing or touching any cock but hers.<br /><br />She is much stricter with me than before and uses me more frequently, though with no concern now whether I come or not – and so far I haven’t. In spite, or maybe because, of this I have never been so content. I have been able to accept how I feel isn’t wrong, and that my wife loves our lifestyle. Out of the house she wants a fit, confident male on her arm. Indoors she wants a totally submissive feminine slut. And that is a role that I feel proud and privileged to fill.<br /><br />Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-80101558911312442442010-01-22T10:29:00.000+00:002010-01-22T10:29:45.684+00:00A hectic few monthsNot sure where to start this as the last few months have been an absolute whirl both in my work life and what I have come to realise is my very real transformation to Deni.<br />
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On the work front I have been away in middle and central Europe for most of the time, which has been exhausting but fun too. Having to buy tights, panty pads and wear lingerie all the time posed a few problems too until I screwed up enough courage to stop being embarrassed and just use the hotel shop and laundry. I’m sure the staff in the hotel shop recognised me as I made my regular purchases but they never said anything. Another threshold crossed I guess.<br />
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On one our rare free weekends Mistress took me to a wonderful shop in London called ‘Transformation’. It’s dedicated to TV/CD men and holds a truly great range of things guaranteed to make you simper with glee! As this was to have been the first time anyone would see me as a TV I was terrified going in there but as it happens I needn’t have been. <br />
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The staff were great, very matter-of-fact and very supportive. I was shocked, but really pleased, when they recognised the dynamic between Mistress and I and addressed her first when talking about me and referred to me as ‘she’ and ‘girl’. <br />
We will definitely be going back there.<br />
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After a lot of browsing and trying on Mistress bought me a pair of black patent high heels that I am slowly learning to walk in, and I love the look and feel of them.<br />
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The following day Mistress took me away for a city break but I’ll put the details of that in another blog.<br />
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Due to my travels the plans for my chastity were altered somewhat. I still wore the CB6000 whilst I was away but Mistress wanted to play with me when I got home so off it came and so did I <grin>. <br />
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Now I am based at home for the immediate future we are back on track and Mistress has told me that I won’t be let out until the end of January at the earliest. She has become a great fan of the ‘feeldoe’ strapon we bought and is determined that I learn to orgasm whilst being used in my pussy as she has decreed my bottom shall be described.<br />
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Whilst on that topic, Mistress has moved things on a bit and now whenever we are alone Mistress used the feminine form of address to me and I am called ‘Deni’; my penis is always referred to as my ‘clitty’ and my bottom as my ‘pussy’. It sounds a small thing but over the last few months it really has start to bed into my psyche. I wonder when one of us will slip in public ?<br />
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More profound for me was the realisation last night that I now prefer to be the ‘fuckee’ rather than the ‘fucker’. I wonder where this is going?<br />
Wherever it leads we are both happier than we have been in a very long time.<br />
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I'll try not to leave the next post so long.<br />
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Love<br />
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DeniDenihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-61243607204153956942009-11-19T22:55:00.000+00:002009-11-19T22:59:20.552+00:00Focus on milkingFollowing my recent post about my problems with milking, and the wise advice from Miss D, my Mistress has decided that after next weekend I will be kept chaste in my CB6000 until I either learn to orgasm from prostate milking or we get to Christmas. <br /><br />She has decided on Christmas as the limit as whilst she enjoys having me use my fingers, tongue or toys to pleasure her, she doesn’t want to deprive herself of using me for too long. I do get the impression, however, that if we reach Christmas without my learning to orgasm for her then it will be going on for a long time in the New Year.<br /><br />Thankfully, my feminisation is progressing much better than my learning to be milked and I now have a wonderful pair of breast forms to fill my new lingerie sets. Mistress wants me in lingerie at all practicable times now along with which I also wear a nightdress to bed and skirts and dresses around the house when we have the place to ourselves.<br /><br />I still find it difficult to believe how quickly this transformation is happening and how beneficial an impact it is having on our relationship. I am much happier and definately calmer now that I have accepted her authority, and we are more in love now than ever.<br /><br />It really is soppy, we can’t stop texting and calling each other throughout the day – and it’s great.Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-69801319368723324962009-11-10T14:30:00.000+00:002009-11-10T14:43:37.801+00:00A special weekendMistress booked a trip to our favourite hotel as a relaxing break for the both of us. As a special gift Mistress also booked me in for a full body massage – something I haven’t tried before but always wanted to try.<br /><br />I was taken out of my CB6000 on Friday evening with strict instructions not to touch. Saturday started very nicely, and after I had brought her morning coffee she decided to make use of me. It was wonderful, but sadly short lived as I came far too quickly, something I notice is becoming more common when I am kept for so long in my CB6000. Thankfully Mistress was very understanding, and I was soon put to use to ensure she had plenty of pleasure.<br /><br />After tidying and packing we set off via the local town for a short shopping trip. I had shared with Mistress that I’ve longed to wear a bra or panty-girdle, and so as a gift for our weekend Mistress bought me a pretty ivory bra and panty set, along with some lovely white hold-up stockings.<br /><br />An unexpected, but very welcome surprise was finding a necklace for me that I could wear all the time and that could act as my collar. We have been searching ever since we decided to start this journey but nothing seemed suitable until today.<br /><br />Unfortunately the traffic was heavier than expected and we were running late when we arrived at the hotel. I was very tense, and really would rather not have gone for my massage. Mistress was, however, insistent and so I went.....and I am so glad. The massage was wonderful, and relaxed me to the point where I thought I would fall asleep.<br /><br />We returned to our room after Mistress had her massage. Once there she placed my new collar on me and then we made love. It was fantastic; Mistress had several powerful orgasms although I wasn’t allowed to ejaculate as I had failed to come from prostate massage. Mistress is insistent that girls should learn to come when they are penetrated, and that I am no exception.<br /><br />Not too long ago the absence of an orgasm for me would have made me think the whole session a failure. Not any more, I was so proud of my new collar and felt warm and fuzzy in knowing I had pleased my Mistress. Having said that I felt bad that I hadn’t come as Mistress wanted and I was so horny I could have burst!<br /><br />To calm me down, Mistress had me take a relaxing bath and then told me to put on my feminine clothes whilst we were in the room. This was the first time I had dressed completely as a woman for Mistress and I was scared she would laugh or find me ludicrous. I needn’t have worried as her reaction was one of love and pride. I felt really good walking around the room in my dress, lingerie and high heels.<br /><br />All too soon it was time to get ready for dinner and so I had to swap my dress and heels for a suit and shoes. I did, however, get to keep my lingerie on under my suit.<br /><br />Dinner was truly divine, Mistress, as usual, choosing my meal for me. The food and service was excellent although Mistress and I did drink a touch more than we are used to and ended up grinning at each other all the way back to our room and a deep, relaxing sleep.<br /><br />After I had brought Mistress her morning coffee, she used me in a most sensuous and relaxed way, then relaxed her rule and let me orgasm outside of my cage. It was wonderful.<br /><br />I am both fearing and relishing the day when she finally gets me to come from prostate stimulation – as I think that will be the start of me being both used mainly as a girl and spending most of my time secured in the CB6000.<br /><br />All too soon it was time to check out and head for home and everyday reality. That reality isn’t the same as before though, as I now wear Mistresses’ collar.<br /><br />Mistress decided to let me stay out of my CB6000 until it was time to return to work. So first thing on Monday morning it went on again with a new numbered tag to record the time and duration of my wearing it. I’m not sure how I will feel about my cage in the months and years to come, but at the moment I love the feeling of ‘belonging’ that it gives me.<br /><br />Once again the new order in our lives has enabled us to overcome a stressful start to the weekend and let us both have a great time together whereas not too long ago we would have been arguing and tense. <br /><br />Whilst we undoubtedly have a long way to go this journey seems more and more worthwhile as we travel together.Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-25837386469719740592009-11-04T20:10:00.000+00:002009-11-04T20:15:16.635+00:00Milking...or notAs part of my ongoing process of feminization and chastity, my wife has been acclimatizing me to anal sex and, as part of this, wants to be able to make me ejaculate from prostate stimulation alone. <br /><br />She feels that I need to ejaculate regularly to keep me calm and to a lesser extent maintain my health, but doesn’t want to take me from my cage unless it is for her convenience.<br /><br />Whilst I struggled with this to start with, being far too tight as well as too uptight, I now look forward to both the physical and the psychological sensations of being penetrated. I honestly can’t think of any other single act that makes me feel so possessed by her.<br /><br />Whether real or imagined I have found I experience the most intense ‘orgasm’ effect throughout my pelvic area after prolonged use in this way, even to the point of having to pee afterwards – a typical effect for me after an orgasm. The problem is, however, that I don’t ejaculate or even leak semen.<br /><br />I have scoured the internet for hints and tips on how to achieve her desired aim. We have also bought a variety of toys including an Aneros prostate stimulator, dildos and quite a fearsome strap-on. Whilst these are very pleasurable and have given me several internal ‘orgasms’, none of these have yielded the desired ejaculation and I am worried that Mistress may start to lose patience with me.Denihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5683202499507470971.post-36541269030567891882009-10-30T09:18:00.000+00:002009-10-30T15:11:33.509+00:00BeginningsAfter a passionate, but turbulent, first few years of our marriage we have decided to try the concept of a Wife Led Marriage.<br /><br />It took a lot for me to approach my wife with the initial suggestion. We have always had a very male dominated relationship, and I've always been the 'in charge' person in my business and personal life but things just weren't working for us. <br /><br />I had long harboured a secret desire to be submissive to a woman, but had suppressed it as it always seemed 'unmanly', weak and not something likely to attract the kind of woman I wanted. It was that fear of rejection that held me back from raising the subject for so long. I was terrified that she would hold me in contempt, despise me and see me as pathetic. <br /><br />In spite of my fears, things became so difficult that I managed to find the courage to talk to her about the concept. I can't say she jumped for joy but thankfully, she agreed to try it out and see what impact it had on our relationship.<br /><br />That was nearly two months ago and things have changed dramatically, and for the better.<br /><br />The most obvious change is in our sex life. She now controls it totally and whilst she has orgasm as and when she wishes I have agreed to let her decide when, or if, I may have mine. The change in focus, where I concentrate on pleasing her without caring for my own satisfaction is proving to be both highly arousing and liberating at the same time.<br /><br />I shared with her my fantasy of wearing some elements of female clothing as a symbol of my submission and she has agreed to allow some aspects of it in our relationship<br /><br />As a daily reminder of the new state of affairs, I now wear female panties and tights under my day wear, indeed my male underwear has been thrown away. I would never have believed how this relatively minor thing could have had such a dramatic change to my emotions. It's made me feel comforted, aroused, submissive and aware of her and her control.<br /><br />Alongside this, we bought a CB6000 chastity belt which I wear most of the time. Initially this was at my suggestion, but thankfully she absolutely loves it and keeps me in for as long as she feels appropriate.<br /><br />Less obvious, but far more profound, has been the change in our everyday lives. I have agreed that she has the final say on all aspects of our life; when we go out, what we buy, where we holiday, how we decorate the house. All of these things used to cause conflict between us, but now its so relaxed. This probably wouldn't have worked so well if we had fundamentally differing aims and needs but the truth was we usually argued over the little things.<br /><br />The end result of these changes has been that we have had the best two months of our relationship so far. Lets see how things progress.<br /><br />DeniDenihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13910814263208444652noreply@blogger.com4